Ever since my last post I've been flipping in and out of old picture files. Just looking at stuff wondering what in the heck happened to me. Different hair, different clothes and 15 extra pounds. I guess that does make a bigger difference than I thought. But it's more to it than that. There's a life in my eyes that isn't there in the newer pictures. I used to look happy without trying. Now I look like I'm forcing a smile when I do let someone take a picture.
Could I really have changed that much in the last few years? I guess there is just more that's different about me than I notice.
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I look the same way now- the smiles are never really happy smiles, just forced. I think it's because we know the infinate sadness that is being babylost, and as much as you try to hide it, the eyes always show it. I've heard the eyes are windows to the soul, which explains why they always look so sad.
((hugs))
I wonder this too, although I've never taken the time to go back and look. Do I look different? Even if I don't - will I think that I do? Because I sure *feel* different.
I see that same light gone in my eyes, too... We do change, I suppose, more than we realize...
I haven't compared photos either, but I think it's because I'm afraid to do so. I don't think I'd like what I see.
I know I've changed ... I don't need to look at old photos to see that ... I just look at the mirror. It's very clear.
Thank you so much for the sweet comment on my blog. Your little one is beautiful! I just spent a good hour immersed in your blog. I am so sorry you lost your Ellie. Hugs!
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