Monday, June 1, 2009

Deep breath

Well - I did end up telling my Mom last night. I just had to spit it out and it was as weird as I was afraid it would be. Not in a bad way - just wierd. She was very cautious as apposed to last time where it was wild exhuberence.

But she did say that as soon as she saw me at the airport she knew something was up because I was wearing a loose dress and I don't normally wear clothes like that.

So far so good... now three people (besides Drs) know.

The hardest one to tell will be A. I have no clue how to handle that one. She's already lost one sibling. I'm scared to get her excited aobut another one.

4 comments:

Heather said...

That's good that you told your mom. It's hard when the reactions are different than they were last time, when everything was so innocent and hopeful.

I don't have any other kids, but we haven't told my little nephew yet. He was SO excited about getting a cousin, and I don't want to set him up for more disappointment. I have no idea how I'd handle it if he lived closer.

So, basically no advice here, but lots of thoughts your way.

Michele said...

glad you told your mom. i remember a great deal of shock in learning about m/c and infant losses later in life because we grew up "spared". for me, it was rough b/c i had never gotten to bond/love the babies b/c we didnt know. as an adult, learning of the losses puts things in perspective that i didnt get then. as hard as it would be for a to lose another sibling, how do you think she would feel if, 10y from now she found out that she had lost a sibling she never had a chance to know while the baby was on the inside? for me, that is a struggle i have as an adult. it's hard.

all that being said, i know that you will feel when you can tell her... when the time feels "right"...

sending hugs

Jen said...

Yay for you! Telling people is the hardest. I think it is because once other people know, it becomes much more real.

Bluebird said...

I'm glad you were able to tell her. I'm so curious about my mom's reaction "next time" - I think I hope that she's cautions, as opposed to the tears and hysterics of announcing the twins' pregnancy. . . I know I will be :)

Thinking of you.