Why is there so much guilt being spread around?
Guilt that you did something wrong and contributed to your child's death...
Guilt that you aren't the same person you used to be...
Guilt about making everyone around you uncomfortable with your grief...
Guilt that your experience wasn't as horrific as someone else's...
Guilt about not being a good enough parent to your other children...
Guilt about wanting another child...
Guilt about your anger...
Guilt about actually being lucky enough to get pregnant again...
I'm just tired of feeling apologetic about my emotional state. I realize that nothing about me is "right" anymore. I just don't know how else to be anymore. I know I'm hard to deal with and I can't "handle" things the way I used to. But this is me... the me that I am now... It's all there is...
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Sounds pretty "normal" to me. I'm the way I am too. If people don't like it, that's their problem. I don't want to feel guilty about who I am and how I feel.
You're exactly right. It's all there is. It is is what it is.
Yep, I know all that guilt. I say don't apologize for it. The ones who truly love you will adjust to the new you. Be who you are and try not to feel guilty for being you. Your experience is unique to you and no one can/should judge or have expectations for how you should be after coming out the other side.
I'm right there on the guilt train with you.
I feel guilty about feeling guilty. It's an awful feeling. I'm thinking of you.
i wish i knew why... but i feel terribly guilty every day.
You sound pretty normal to me. I'm there right there, feeling guilty over losing my baby. Feeling guilty about being angry with the unfairness of the world.
This is just our new normal, and I guess I have to learn to accept it.
xoxo
i guess everyone just needs to accept how it is now
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