Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Thanks for the advice... I don't think what is going on with me and my breasts is mastasis. I looked it up and that seems a lot more serious than what I am experiencing. It's gotten better over the last few dasy so I might wait before I do anything. Little man still seems to be getting enough when he's nursing - I just don't get much pumping.

Starting yesterday we both seem to have picked up the cold bug that has been going around. My throat is sore and little man has a terrible cough. Hopefully this will resolve itself quickly and without any Dr visits.

And as a major bonus - little man has decided that he loves to watch me knit. As a not so major bonus he also finds laundry folding to be completely amusing...

Monday, February 22, 2010

Books, Breastfeeding and Chocolate

Slightly random post - but that's just how my mind works these days...Hope you all had a GREAT weekend. I love waking up to sunlight! Yesterday when I got up to take a shower for church the sun was coming up! WELCOME SPRING!!!!

Books - I have loved to read all of my life. I love getting lost in a story. Finishing a book is like the shock of cold air after getting out of a warm pool. I've had a great run of good reads so far this year. I keep a list of what I've read on the family photo blog, but I think I'm going to move it here. I will read almost anything as long as it isn't violent or gory. I've got a whole self of things waiting for me - I hope I can keep up this good reading streak! All of the pumping I've been doing lately has given me the stolen moments during the day (and night) to read. Have you read anything interesting lately? Who are your favorite authors and favorite books?

Breastfeeding - Believe it or not - after 11 weeks - I finally feel like I've gotten the hang of things. But of course, now that it feels like we are on track - my body has decided to rebel. I think my supply is decreasing drastically. I used to be able to pump 4 - 5 oz at a time. Now it's more like 2 or 3. And there is some serious pain! It feels like a hot buring sensation after I pump. Is this normal? Could this have something to do with my drop in production? Ugh...just as I was starting to feel good about something had to go wrong! (And I've finally gotten T on board with it too!!!) I'm going to go buy fenugreek - I hope it helps.

Chocolate - post valentines candy is very, very dangerous and very, very tasty!!!!

Oh yeah - what do you think of the new look?

Wednesday, February 17, 2010


We did Little Man's baptism on Sunday. He was a wonderfully calm little baby. He didn't even cry when he was doused with water.

My mom sent me the baptism gown that my Grandmother made for me. Every baby in our family has worn it so far. Except for Amelia. She wasn't a baby when she got baptized this summer so she got her own special dress. The gown is now almost 39 years old - and it is fragile... I was so worried it would rip while we were holding him but it didn't. And he didn't spit up on the gown once during church! Not that we got away totally clean - he saved the spitting up for at home as I was getting him undressed.Even more special than the gown were the flowers. We had ordered these flowers for Ellie's birthday. The women who take care of the church had made them last this long - and they still look great! It felt a little like she was making her presence known.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

500 colored pencils

Check out this site to see one of the most beautiful collection of colors I have come across.

In my job each and every pattern that we create gets a name and a color ID. We search and search for good names that haven't already been used in our company's 30 yr history. Sometimes we get lucky and get a really great name. But mostly we settle for ones that can be very, very funny when pronounced by our sales staff in the first few showings. Color names tend to be even harder. Color is subjective - what looks green to me might look blue to someone else. You have to balance that with the nature of the pattern too. You couldn't give a southwest pattern a floral color name... And sometimes your mind just gets stuck... So having this to look at helps spark some pretty good ideas!

And thank you - for all the kind comments to my last post. Nothing has changed - but I'm trying not to let it get me down. My family is healthy, warm and happy...that's enough for right now.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

I need a makeover

I don't very often post about my job because in general I really have nothing to complain about. (well - OK... better hours and better pay would be nice but let's be realistic...) Unlike most Americans I really do love what I do.

I work for a company that has become an industry leader in the last 5 years. We have not only survived an economic meltdown - but have become stronger and more successful than any of us ever thought.

What does any of this have to do with a makeover? I am a not so young female professional in a very public position at a company that claims to be a style leader. And somehow in the last few years in the midst of trying to build a family and survive several personal crisis - I lost my style. I used to be cute and trendy, with great shoes and clothes. Now, if an outfit doesn't involve jeans and my dansko clogs I can't be bothered.

Two things as many days have made me realize this...
  1. My co-director and I hired an assistant. OMG! we have needed someone for years and finally got the funding approved. She started this week. She is so cute and well dressed it makes me look like I am supposed to be crawling around on the floor cutting and sorting fabric! And our HR director pointed out that we are supposed to dress "professionally" at the office as she gave me a sideways glance.
  2. I went on a field trip with Amelia's class to the circus. SO MUCH FUN! But all of the other mothers were so well dressed - nice jeans, cute boots, jackets with matching hats etc... meanwhile - I am lucky to have made it out of the house with out puke running down my arm. I felt 100% frumpy in comparison.

A few weeks ago I got my hair cut short. I had a really cute short hair cut about 5 years ago. I tried to re-create that fabulous look - complete bomb! Then in an effort to make myself like the short hair I decided to color my hair - MYSELF! Complete atomic bomb! So now I'm stuck with a really horrible haircut and even worse color until it grows out and washed out.

Aside from the hair - my clothes suck too. Right now I am struggling with finding outfits to accommodate pumping. While I was at home it wasn't really a problem - I wore the same two t-shirts everyday. Unfortunately I can't wear faded button up t-shirts everyday to work. And right now isn't really a great time to go out and spend a bunch of money on a new wardrobe.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

New fabrics on furniture...

Here are some news pics... (wish this was my house!!)

Back at work

Being back at work SUCKS!

I was all excited and loving it last week...but this week has been a drag. It feels like I have been out of the loop for so long it will take months to get bck in the swing of things. All of my in progress projects were left at a dead standstill because the person who was supposed to follow up on them completely dropped the ball. (That's a whole other post...) And now I've got to try and get my own stuff done and gear up for my partner to go on maternity leave!

We still haven't gotten a good schedule worked out so I feel constatnly exhausted. Little man still doesn't come close to sleeping through the night. So I'm up with him at least two times. And by the time he wakes up the second time it's almost time for me to get up and start getting ready so I usually end up laying awake until the alarm goes off. (whine, whine, whine...)

I don't know how much longer BF is going to last. Pumping while at the office is just plain wierd and completely uncomfortable. My office does have a door, but not a lock, so there is the constant fear that someone will just walk in. Then there is also the fact that I work with a bunch of old men who could really care less about babies and motherhood and all the issues that go along with that.

We had an appointment with a studio from England last week. I mentioned that I was just back after being out for 8 weeks on maternity leave. He mentioned that in England mothers get 1 year after a baby is born! I'm so jealous!

Monday, February 8, 2010

2 months old!

Little man was 2 months old on Saturday! Wow has it already been that long?

He really is doing amazingly well. He's really become wide eyed and curious over the last few weeks. He and Yaya have so much fun together.

He's discovered his thumb!